Post by Thorn//\\Dark||Shimmer on Jun 1, 2009 21:58:08 GMT -6
I made this autobiographical event essay and it was the closest thing to reflecting myself that I have ever written. It completely portrays my intellectual ambition. It moves me, pulls me. I understand if this story makes no since to you, but it is inspiring to me.
I had known that there were many stars in space. I had known that, in the full scale of things, we as humans are insignificant. But I had never truly been able to visualize the enormity of it. The immensity of the universe is just too much for the human mind to comprehend. But I found a place where I could come close to understanding this: my grandparents’ house on the Eastern Shore.
I was lying on the grass in the backyard of their house, looking at the stars. The view of the sky in the country was nothing like it is in the city. There was no light pollution to block out the starlight. There were hardly any planes that flew by and got in the way of the stars. The houses were not close together, blocking one’s view of the horizon. I could truly see the vastness of space, as man has seen it for thousands of years. And by looking at this new view, new ideas come to me. Not as complete thoughts, but as if I just suddenly understood.
I felt in me a sense of awe, and most of all, a sense of desire. I felt as though I was being drawn by it, a passion of such intensity that I forgot about the cold of the ground beneath me. I forgot about the dinner that was to be ready in a few minutes. I forgot about the world. I forgot about myself. All I could think of was outer space and the promises of knowledge that it held. This promise was what I lived for, to learn everything that I can in the little life that I have.
I stopped viewing the universe as the Earth separated from the rest of space, for this is the perspective for one on Earth. Instead, I saw it as a whole. I saw the pure vastness of the universe. And in doing so, I realized just how arrogant man is. Man, who believed that he is so important that the universe was made for him, also believed himself to be the only intelligent race in the entire universe. I also realized just how much man does not know.
With this epiphany came the knowledge of what I wanted to do. Before, I had wondered what I would do with my passion to learn everything, to discover new things, to create. But now I knew. I was to learn everything I possibly could so that I could understand the universe and solve the mysteries of mankind, as well as the mysteries not yet discovered. This was my ultimate purpose.
And then this new perspective ended, as if I had awakened for only a brief moment. The stars just twinkled. They seemed to have lost that power of realization. But I realized that it was I who had lost it. Not completely, for the power is always there, but it had lost its intensity. It had become dormant, to wait until I could again awaken from the dream of life. I was again myself, Amethyst. I suddenly felt the cold earth and heard the grumbling in my stomach.
Even though I no longer had that awesome perspective, I had not forgotten what I learned. For now I had a new purpose, something to strive for, to live for. I knew what I wanted to become. And with this new knowledge, I stood up and looked at the stars one more time. Then I headed back towards my grandparents’ house and supper; a knowing smile on my face.
Knowledge in the Sky
I had known that there were many stars in space. I had known that, in the full scale of things, we as humans are insignificant. But I had never truly been able to visualize the enormity of it. The immensity of the universe is just too much for the human mind to comprehend. But I found a place where I could come close to understanding this: my grandparents’ house on the Eastern Shore.
I was lying on the grass in the backyard of their house, looking at the stars. The view of the sky in the country was nothing like it is in the city. There was no light pollution to block out the starlight. There were hardly any planes that flew by and got in the way of the stars. The houses were not close together, blocking one’s view of the horizon. I could truly see the vastness of space, as man has seen it for thousands of years. And by looking at this new view, new ideas come to me. Not as complete thoughts, but as if I just suddenly understood.
I felt in me a sense of awe, and most of all, a sense of desire. I felt as though I was being drawn by it, a passion of such intensity that I forgot about the cold of the ground beneath me. I forgot about the dinner that was to be ready in a few minutes. I forgot about the world. I forgot about myself. All I could think of was outer space and the promises of knowledge that it held. This promise was what I lived for, to learn everything that I can in the little life that I have.
I stopped viewing the universe as the Earth separated from the rest of space, for this is the perspective for one on Earth. Instead, I saw it as a whole. I saw the pure vastness of the universe. And in doing so, I realized just how arrogant man is. Man, who believed that he is so important that the universe was made for him, also believed himself to be the only intelligent race in the entire universe. I also realized just how much man does not know.
With this epiphany came the knowledge of what I wanted to do. Before, I had wondered what I would do with my passion to learn everything, to discover new things, to create. But now I knew. I was to learn everything I possibly could so that I could understand the universe and solve the mysteries of mankind, as well as the mysteries not yet discovered. This was my ultimate purpose.
And then this new perspective ended, as if I had awakened for only a brief moment. The stars just twinkled. They seemed to have lost that power of realization. But I realized that it was I who had lost it. Not completely, for the power is always there, but it had lost its intensity. It had become dormant, to wait until I could again awaken from the dream of life. I was again myself, Amethyst. I suddenly felt the cold earth and heard the grumbling in my stomach.
Even though I no longer had that awesome perspective, I had not forgotten what I learned. For now I had a new purpose, something to strive for, to live for. I knew what I wanted to become. And with this new knowledge, I stood up and looked at the stars one more time. Then I headed back towards my grandparents’ house and supper; a knowing smile on my face.
